Journal of a Melancholic

As a child my delight was to sit on the roof top
As an adult my neighbors thought me weird, sitting on my roof
  - so I took a camera with me
And they thought me a pervert on my roof with a camera
   -so I went to the park with my camera
And they thought me to be a stalker
   -so I only went out to photograph in the rain
And they assumed me to be challenged
   -so I only went out when people paid me to use my camera
And they  thought me too expensive and quit calling
   -so now I go out disguised as an old man
   with a little plastic camera wrapped in duct tape
And I no longer care what they think - I am alone again 
with my thoughts, and the memory of that 10 year old 
sitting on the roof top
                       -Michael Hartsock

On Finding Inspiration
Even though I don’t consider myself of a melancholic temperament, melancholy is what compels my response. I like to think of it as a tranquil loneliness or spiritual longing. At times it may even be a profound sadness but it is never a debilitating melancholy of depression or despair. I search for melancholy in poetry and music, in silence and solitude, in rainy days and the long shadows of evening. The quality of melancholy is what I would like to bring to my work regardless of the subject matter.


Process Information
My photography is realized with black & white film personally processed and printed in a traditional "wet" darkroom without digital manipulation.  I experiment with various techniques including hand held and tripod time exposures, multiple in camera exposures and sandwich printing of negatives.